Missionaries are very human folks, just doing what they are asked. Simply a bunch of nobodies trying to exalt somebody."

                            -Shadow of the Almighty By: "Elizabeth Elliot"

God is good all the time and all the time God is good because it is his nature.

 It has been a bit of a struggle here in Uganda recently, I do not want to lie to any of you at all. Some day's you can be on a mission field in Africa and feel further from God than if you were at home in your own bed with all the comforts and distractions of the world right in front of you. I want to speak for myself though because not everyone has been having these same kinds of struggles. I feel the Lord here, I feel him calling me and saying "KC seek me" that same verse is still on my heart that I wrote in my last blog Jeremiah 29:13 "You will search for me and when you search for me with all of your heart you will find me." I am still in a process of trying to figure out what that looks like. I feel very close to a breaking point and a breakthrough with the Lord but I have been fighting many mental attacks from Satan in the past few weeks as I have been searching. Some day's he even tries to take my joy and I can't handle it. I know who my God is I know how he loves me and I know how proud of me he is. Satan likes to tell me that my efforts will not be good enough that I might as well not try seeking God because it's not going to be what I expect and I will not be able to seek him in the same way that other's do. But I have found recently that if I find or hear these lies speaking it out loud and rebuking it is a great way to fight it and put the lies to death.

I want to encourage all of you who may understand what I am going through and you may be in the same spot or in other situations where you feel attacked by the enemy that he has no power in your life and in those lies. The only power Satan ever has is the power we give him by believing his lies and allowing him to keep growing those lies. DO NOT LISTEN TO HIM!! You are God's child, his precious son or daughter, he made you in his image to be like him and he NEVER makes mistakes. You are fearfully and wonderfully made and I love you but he loves you even more. Keep fighting and praying and please keep praying for me as well, I have found that you can't always fight these things on your own.

Praise be to GOD whom I love with all my heart.

Thank you for your goodness and the trials you bring us through. Thank you for the loved ones you have put all around me and thank you that you NEVER leave us.

Also praise God for my mom who he has brought back to him and it is so encouraging to get to talk with her and know when I come home we will be able to grow closer with the Lord together.

LOVE,

LOVE,

LOVE