So it is now 3 a.m. and I am suppose to be getting up in one hour to leave for the Houston airport to travel home...HOME!!!
Am I ready for this? Can it really be that time? I have a vivid memory of myself walking out of my house 8 months ago and thinking "I wont be back here for a while." And now it's time for me to go back. Now it's time for this "new journey" that I was about to step into; to be over. WOW!!! That's all I can really say to that.
I am beyond words excited to see my mommy and my family and friends at the airport, but I am beyond words sad to leave everyone here. These people mean the world to me. The way we love, live and interact with each other is going to be beyond words and expressions that I will have for anyone. I wish just one person from home could have walked this out with me. Just one, so that someone will understand when I say things like:
"hajima"
"just stop yelling at me"
"chill out girl"
"it hurts my soul"
"pole" (pronounced pole-a)
"persecution"
But people just wont get it. As you read this, do you get it?
This is a reality that has been really hard for me to step into, but I think it is slowly coming. I now see that this chapter of my life is over but this life that I live is not.
If I could title this chapter, this chapter of my life would be titled "The Journey that pushed me to extravagant living for God."
I now have so much that I want to come home and do, I have many things that I want to begin doing for God. I want to walk daily in the truth I have learned from this trip and I can't wait to see the change in me, the changes that I just can't quite see yet.
I am sorry that this blog does not make a lot of sense and it is kind of scattered among all of my many thoughts and feelings right now. I am having a little case of word vomit as we like to call it around here.
Oh I just can't wait for what is ahead of me, what's to come in this summer. I feel as thought I already know some of what God is going to be doing with me and teaching me. He is going to be working with me about trust and patience...(2 of my biggest fears). Hahahaha but I am ready to take it on, learn more and grow more.
You see this journey called "Novas" as of now is over, but this journey called "being a follower of Christ" this journey NEVER ends.
Thank you God for the journey you have begone in me, thank you that this journey is now over and a new one begins. Thank you for this one Lord for you taught me so much and grew me so much more.
AMEN
GOD BLESS
LOVE
LOVE
LOVE
